Monday, December 04, 2017

"The Strawberry Festival" in Occulum

My new flash fiction "The Strawberry Festival" is in Issue 2 of Occulum. I love the aesthetic of this journal. Editor Arielle Tipa has gathered a dark constellation of writers around her with these first two issues, and I'm happy to be a small part of it. Here are the first few lines from the story:

It was red through and through. I reached my hand deep in the inner leaves. An ant crawled across my knuckles dragging a broken leg. I tried to help by pulling the leg off, but I broke the ant in half and its two pieces went round and round trying to find each other. Red ones are the sweetest. This one was a little soft in the middle and the sweet was almost rot. I fed a piece to the dead ant.

Sunday, April 02, 2017

"Teenage Boy in Polaroids" in New World Writing

My short story, "Teenage Boy in Polaroids," is live at New World Writing. A big thank you to Kim Chinquee for accepting this piece. I'm happy to be in the company of many writers I admire and a lot of excellent work at this magazine.

Here's the opening paragraph:

The teenage boy drove a black Trans Am with an eagle on the hood. He was friends with my babysitter Rita and her friends, and she would invite them over to drink beers and blast David Bowie and T. Rex on my dad’s stereo system. One night the girls raided my parents’ bedroom and dressed me in a wig and a glamorous old gown and painted my face with lipstick and rouge. The teenage boy had long brown hair just like the wig I wore. “Look at us with our lovely locks,” he said, shaking his curls. The girls took Polaroids to show my mom, and the pictures bloomed on the little black squares like oil on rain.

Tuesday, August 30, 2016

"Science Project" in Atticus Review

Because of summer traveling and, now, the beginning of the semester, I neglected to post that my flash fiction "Science Project" was published in Atticus Review on August 15. Many thanks to Michelle Ross and the team at Atticus. The story began as an exercise written in class during one of the fiction workshops I was teaching a few years ago. (I like to do the exercises I assign along with my students.) I toyed with it a bit. I might even have submitted it to one or two places. But then I put it away, intending to work on it at some later point, and forgot about it. Recently, going back through some old work, I found it and went through it again, sentence by sentence, sharpening the language and strengthening the father-son relationship between the scientist and the boy. It's a satisfying feeling to reclaim and improve old work. I hope you enjoy it.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

The Voices of the Dead and the Voices of the Living

The University of Amsterdam, it turns out, is pretty tricky to find for someone like me who had never been to Amsterdam before and has poor spatial and directional sense. Fortunately, I found a group of fellow conference attendees and together we managed to find our way through a tunnel and into a courtyard that led to the main building where the conference was being held. It was here I took a picture of the outer wall of the tunnel that houses the Oudemanhuispoort book stalls:

I took the picture because I liked the Banksy-style stencil art and the chance element of the weed growing in such a way that it looks like the woman is peering from behind it, as if hiding. But I'm also glad I included the engraved stone plaque on the wall:

If you can't read it on the picture, here are the words: "Toen is in mij het bewustzijn ontwaakt dat een van de taken van de historicus, de man die schrijft over de mensen van vroeger, is de doden stem te verlenen. De doden moeten kunnen spreken en als men hen het spreken belemmert dan sterven ze tweemaal. J.P."

I don't read or speak Dutch, nor did I realize who J.P. was until later when I did some research looking for the quotation. Before traveling to Amsterdam, I read Geert Mak's Amsterdam to get a sense of the history of the city. As one might imagine, the most harrowing part of the book was Mak's description of the treatment of the Jews in Amsterdam during the Nazi occupation, for which he relies heavily on the work of historian Jacques Presser. If you know this history and you know Presser, who was a professor at the University of Amsterdam, then you know that this is who J.P. is. Here is a more complete quotation from which the above quote comes, from Gesprekken met Jacques Presser (Conversations with Jacques Presser) by Philo Bregstein (quoted here in an article by Adriaan Venema):

“Ik lees het en voor mij heeft praktisch niemand het gelezen en na mij gaat de boel een archief in en zal er vermoedelijk geen haan ooit meer naar kraaien. Toen is in mij het bewustzijn ontwaakt dat een van de taken van de historicus, de man die schrijft over de mensen van vroeger, is de doden stem te verlenen. De doden moeten kunnen spreken en als men hen het spreken belemmert dan sterven ze tweemaal. Daar hoor ik zelf van op, dat klinkt rijkelijk aan de theatrale kant, ik kan er niets aan doen. Wie de doden het zwijgen oplegt, laat ze tweemaal sterven...”

These interviews with Jacques Presser have not been translated into English, as far as I know, but I found a translation of some of these words in the Afterword to materials for the film The Past That Lives, about Jacques Presser:

“When you have worked, as I have, for about fifteen years with these documents, you are continuously confronted with the dead, the voices of the deceased. I read these papers, the little scraps of paper, thrown from the train, the rare messages coming from Westerbork ... Before me, hardly anyone has read them and, after me, they are locked into the archives and it's possible that nobody else will see them. They awoke in me the awareness that one of the tasks of the historian, the man who writes about people in the past, is to give the dead a voice. The dead must be able to speak ... and anyone who lets the dead remain silent allows them to die twice, and I have simply refused to permit that.”  

In Amsterdam, Geert Mak quotes postwar testimony from a Holocaust survivor from Amsterdam: "The Netherlands has carried out the biggest public relations exercise to follow the Second World War by using the diary of Anne Frank to give the impression that the Jews were all in hiding here, and that the entire Dutch population was in the Resistance." Mak continues: "the Dutch still have a tendency to talk up the extent of their resistance to almost mythical proportions. In reality, proportionally more Jews were deported from the Netherlands than from any other Western European country."

The conference I was attending at the University of Amsterdam was Narrative 2016, the annual conference of the International Society for the Study of Narrative. I was there to deliver a paper on British-Nigerian writer Helen Oyeyemi’s 2009 novel White Is for Witching, which, to greatly simplify, is about a young girl named Miranda who, in order to grow up and live an independent life, must first escape the house she has lived in for much of her life, a house that, in Gothic tradition, has a will of its own—in this case, an isolationist, xenophobic, and racist will. The house’s xenophobia was born out of the reactionary fear of the enemy during and after the Second World War, a fear that inspired in the house a hostility toward outsiders and a desire to protect the family by sealing them off from others’ influence. The present day crisis of the novel comes when the house is opened as a bed-and-breakfast. Unwilling to offer hospitality to others, it drives them away. As the house states directly, “They shouldn’t be allowed in, those others, so eventually I make them leave.”

The house targets especially its non-white guests and staff, terrorizing the Azerbaijani family who work and live there, the new Nigerian housekeeper who is hired after they flee, and a black British couple who attempt to vacation there. When Miranda brings home her girlfriend Ore, whose mother was born in Nigeria, the house describes the relationship as “disgusting” and invades Ore’s mind with hallucinatory thoughts that her black skin is coming off on the towels after she takes a shower, while outside the bathroom door she hears voices singing “Rule Britannia!” Later she discovers her room covered in British National Party leaflets: “Do you know how many immigrants are in the UK? Neither does the UK government …

The novel is set in Dover during a crisis of stabbings of Kosovan refugees, stories of which appear regularly in The Dover Post. Meanwhile, the Nigerian housekeeper Sade visits the local Immigration Removal Center to visit with those there and bring them food. At one point, Sade returns home distraught because a young man at the Removal Center has hanged himself. She tells Miranda: “I’m thinking of the shame. To make a man hang himself. That place is a prison. You come without papers because you have been unable to prove that you are useful to anyone, and then when you arrive they put you in prison, and if you are unable to prove that you have suffered, they send you back. That place up there is a prison. He didn’t deserve that.”

But despite her relationship with Ore, despite her encounters with the sufferings of refugees, Miranda cannot escape the xenophobic influence of the house. One of the ways the house keeps its hold on her is through an eating disorder called pica, passed down through the women of the family who have grown up in the house. Pica, as the novel tells us, “is an appetite for non-food items, things that don’t nourish.” For Miranda, this means eating bits of plastic and, significantly in terms of the novel’s symbolism, chalk. For this is Dover of the famous white chalk cliffs and the famous Vera Lynn song that, in the same year the novel was published, was being used by the BNP to promote their white nationalist ideology. Throughout the novel Miranda eats white chalk, as if ingesting the house’s xenophobia. Ultimately, the house and its ideology devour her: she remains trapped in a wall of the house, eating (white) plaster.

The day after I returned to the U.S. from Amsterdam was World Refugee Day, the day the UNHCR released its annual report, which stated "65.3 million people, or one person in 113, were displaced from their homes by conflict and persecution in 2015," the largest number since UNHCR has been keeping records.

A few days later, the UK voted to exit the EU, a vote inflamed by anti-immigrant rhetoric.

Miranda’s fate in Oyeyemi’s novel—the home of the isolated self intertwined with the home of the isolationist nation as they feed on each other—may very well be the fate of England after Brexit: police the borders, determine who belongs, exclude those who are deemed outsiders, and eat itself to death. This might be fine if it didn’t have real consequences for those excluded others.

While one narrative of Brexit focuses on working-class antagonism toward elites, this narrative obscures the way the Leave campaign relentlessly used the language of “taking our country back” and a suspicion of “open borders” to draw on anti-immigrant fears. And recent reports from the UK bear this out. Polish people and other eastern Europeans as well as anyone who doesn't fit some perceived notion of Britishness are finding themselves subject to xenophobic and racist attacks. Anyusha Rose argues that “the Brexit debate is normalizing British racism,” and gives as one example a conversation she had in a pub in which a man, after wondering why the killer of Jo Cox couldn’t have killed a foreigner instead, asked Rose (who is “mixed race, and London born and bred”), “Where are you really from?” Joseph Harker writes, “Yes, the immigration issue has been about numbers coming from eastern Europe, and about people who don’t have English as their first language. But as anyone with a black or brown face knows, our nationality is regularly questioned, even when we’re born here.” On my Facebook feed, friends and friends of friends are posting real-time instances of racist hate speech directed against them in the wake of Brexit. A Facebook page, "Worrying Signs," has been created to help document these instances.

Far-right parties in Europe are now using Brexit as an opportunity to further stoke the fears and rage, the racism and xenophobia of this populist wave. Both Geert Wilders of the Netherlands’ PVV (Party for Freedom) and Marine Le Pen of France’s National Front came out in the wake of the UK vote to champion their own versions of Brexit.

The rise of right-wing glee after Brexit has Joseph Harker writing, “This morning, knowing these despicable tactics have won over the nation, it feels like a ‘First they came for the Poles’ moment. It seems only a matter of time before the intolerance that has been unleashed, reinforced and normalised, looks for the old, easy targets of people who look different. People like me.” And if this sounds exaggerated to anyone (it doesn't to me), just note the language of the signs placed in letterboxes in Huntingdon, Cambridgeshire, which has the ring of the 1930s: "No more Polish vermin."

The third night of my stay in Amsterdam I took this picture of a row of shops and residences, hoping to capture something of the architecture of the typical street in this section near the neighborhood of De Pijp. This was one of the areas where, in the early 20th century, Jewish workers moved as they left the old Jewish sector of the city and integrated more into other neighborhoods, a time which, before the Second World War and the Nazi occupation, must have seemed like the promise of progress.

I had just had dinner at the Indonesian restaurant D├Ęsa and was on my way back to my hotel, waiting at a tram stop with a few other people. One tram pulled up, but the sign in Dutch on the front said something like, “No Stops.” Maybe the white Dutch couple, an older man with his wife, didn’t see the sign, having come up to the tram from the side. The man waved to the driver, but the driver didn’t open the door. The man began arguing, gesturing more forcefully, his face reddening as he became angrier, while the driver, who was not white, kept the door shut. The tram pulled up a bit farther to the red light where it continued to wait. The man charged past me, breathing heavily, and pounded on the tram’s plastic doors, yelling in Dutch at the driver. When the light turned green, the man pounded the doors one last time and yelled a single pointed word or phrase.

The tram pulled away, and the couple went across the street. The young man sitting on the bench next to me looked up and said something in Dutch. “I’m sorry,” I said.

“He’s drunk and he's racist,” the young man continued in English. “‘Fucking nigger.’ That's what he said.”

I nodded. “I thought it was something like that.”

“The first time I ever experienced discrimination,” he said, “was here. I’m from Suriname. In my country we don’t have racism.

“I have a business,” he continued, “laying carpets in hotels. I’m working near here.” He pointed down the street. “The owners of the hotel are Chinese. They never give me any problem.” He laughed. “I work six months here, then I go home for six months. I’m going home soon.”

The tram was taking a long time, and my hotel wasn’t that far, so I decided to walk back. I waved good night to him, wished him good luck, and he wished me the same.
I've been thinking about this encounter since I returned. The older white man was so certain of his own rightness that he continued to bang on the doors and berate the driver long past the time he should have read the sign, "No Stops," and long past the time he should have realized that there was no one on the bus. He wanted the driver to open the bus just for him and his wife, just because he said so, and when the driver didn't, the reason was not that the driver was simply doing his job but that the driver was deliberately antagonizing him. His racist slur stated, in effect, "You have no right to keep these doors closed to me because of who I am and who you are and the difference between us." The white man did not like the fact that, in this situation, he didn't have the upper hand and he was powerless to change it, and he lashed out with whatever power he felt he did have, the power of racial superiority, "I'm white, you're not, open these doors!" But the driver kept the doors closed. The sign stated it clearly, "No Stops." But the white man either didn't want to read the sign or didn't want to listen when it was a black man who was there to enforce those words.

And I've been thinking of the generosity of the young man who talked with me about his own life and his experiences with those like the racist man whose irrational anger we witnessed.

We need to keep our eyes open. We need to read the signs, especially those of us who occupy a position of privilege and have the tendency to ignore the voices of those without such privilege. We need to listen for the voice of Oyeyemi's house within us, telling us to eat the white chalk, refuse the stranger, close the borders, and we need to resist it. And most importantly, we need to listen to the living voices of those who are experiencing the effects of racism and xenophobia. They are speaking everywhere, on the street, at tram stops, in pubs and restaurants, in places of work, on Twitter and Facebook, online blogs and magazines, and their voices are clear and strong. We need to listen.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

"The Wood Thrush" on Wigleaf's Longlist of Top Very Short Fictions

Every year I eagerly await Wigleaf's Top 50 Very Short Fictions. This year Matt Salesses made some excellent selections, which I will be reading through over the next few weeks. I'm happy that my short story "The Wood Thrush," originally published in the Spring 2015 issue of Devil's Lake, made the Longlist. Thanks to the Wigleaf team for recognizing my story.

Wigleaf has been good to me over the years. In addition to publishing two microfictions of mine, Wigleaf also chose "Bible Camp" from SmokeLong Quarterly for the 2012 Longlist, and guest editor Brian Evenson chose "The Devil Called Satan Had Me for a Snack" for the 2010 Top 50. (These stories are all linked on the sidebar.)

Monday, May 16, 2016

After the Storm ...

My story "After the Storm, the Cement Ship" in Necessary Fiction was inspired by the wreckage of the cement ship at Seacliff State Beach in Aptos, California, and by the wreckage of a storm that hit Capitola Beach in Capitola, California, in the winter of 2010.

Some people built structures out of the wreckage ...

and as the days went on there were more and more of these little cabins dotting the beach.

I wanted to capture a mood of wreckage and ruin by linking these two spaces in the story, having the family walk through the storm wreckage to wind up at the ruin of the ship, while all around them mud is sliding, trees are falling, and the entire world is on the edge of collapse. These spaces are, in fact, linked geographically. On a clear day, one can see the cement ship from Capitola Beach, and on a really clear day, one can see the power plant at Moss Landing, the city of Monterey, and the hills of Carmel, as one follows the horseshoe curve around Monterey Bay.

Friday, May 13, 2016

New Story in Necessary Fiction

My flash fiction "After the Storm, the Cement Ship" is the featured story this week at Necessary Fiction.

The cement ship in the story is based on the S.S. Palo Alto at Seacliff State Beach in Aptos, California. It's a place I've visited with my family a number of times, and I've always loved this ugly ruin squatting in the midst of this otherwise sublime landscape. Its history is one of disuse and failed promise, with a period of short-lived glamour. It was an oil tanker intended for use in WWI, but the war ended before it ever sailed. It sat for ten years in a shipyard until it was repurposed as a tourist destination for dining and dancing; it had a neon sign and a swimming pool. But only two years later the ship cracked and its glamour faded and it just sat there in the water, eventually becoming a fishing pier, and when it finally corroded too much to be safe, was closed to public access. Now it's a habitat for birds and marine life.

This is a picture I took in March of 2007 standing at the gate at the end of the pier:

And a closeup through the gate:

On our visit in August of 2012 there were a lot of birds:

You can read more about the ship here, here, and here.

In my next post, I'll show some pictures from the storm that also inspired the story.